Happy New Year......in advance!!

Today is the very last day of the year! :D As for all the wonderful memories I had this year...I'll just keep them safe in my heart. (: hahahahahahaha

And my new year resolutions...HMM..lemme see:

1. Try to patch things up with HIM

2. Study hard and get into my fav JC!

3. Control my hormones

4. Get the Edusave scholarship(2 yrs nvr get le...WAHHHHH!!!:'( )

5. Be less anti-social and make more friends

6. (I haven't thought of it yet. ><)

RAWR. Things just dun seem to go the way I expected it to be. =( SAD....

And I have a feeling that next year will be SOOOOOO screwed up. T.T

oh wells.

A bad day today

Now i'm VERY pissed off at myself. Last night I slept for only about 2 hours, and with my uncontrolled emotions now, I'm practically an exploding volcano and a potential danger zone. RAWR. So stay away from me...at least for today.

Sorry for the profanities that is to follow.

I'm fucking pissed off at myself cos I fucking miss him. I suppose he doesn't miss me anymore and he's probably having fun now/looking at someone else/ emoing over something else. And why do I still fucking miss him??Why do I still give a shit about him??Why do I wanna try to patch things up again when I know that it'll be fucking useless?!

And cos of him, I nvr contribute much to the ST, I nvr talk much to the other excos, and i nvr contribute much to the camp. FML.

I feel like calling someone now and have a heart-to-heart talk and make myself feel better....but apparently I don't wish to give anyone any extra burdens to carry....RAWR.

oh wells. NEVERMIND.Everything's useless anyway.

(:

Finally. I think I have gotten over him le. But who knows?maybe the feeling will come back again and I'll start missing him again...

Okay. My main purpose today is to thank a certain friend of mine who has been there for me whenever I was down, whenever I thought I was about to break down. (:

Idk if she'll read this, but oh wells. I'm really grateful to have a friend like her! Somehow, I didn't rly have any close friends whom I can rly confide to, whom I can trust my darkest secrets with. But now, I know who's truly my friend, who's rly there to catch me when I'm about to fall. Not that I'm reliant on my friends...I've never told anyone how I rly felt abt things before cos I don't want to be a burden to others. But now,apparently something big happened and I kinda need someone to talk to........

oh wells.Thanks loads!!^^

Idk why, but I rly envy ppl who have very close friends, so close that they seem like real siblings. Maybe it's just me being anti-social, but I've really tried my best....=(

Gah.nvm.

And I'm beginning to think that HE leaving me may be my just desserts. =( Come to think of it, I rly did not treat him well enough and I made him live a life of misery. LOL. Or perhaps I didn't want to admit that I liked him. AWKWARD...:/

HE attended the farewell party ytd. And it was weird cos he was emoing all the time. LOL.At that moment, I really felt like talking to him and asking if all was well(obviously NOT) cos he looked kinda ill, but in the end I decided not to...Anyway, he didn't even want to talk to me either, so what's the use? And yea. I believe I saw him on the bus this morning...=(

oh wells.nvm.bb.

=(

Sigh...I just realised that I have a very very sad life...

He has ignored me for more than 1 mth le...idk how he does it, but oh wells. But i rly admire him for his strong 'determination'. xD

u know what?i miss him,A LOT.

But nobody really understand what I'm going through now....Whenever I miss him, I just want to talk to someone and let out all my feelings....but most ppl are busy nowadays...preparing for o lvl etc etc. =(

And and....he blocked me on fb. RAWR!!

I just want to know why he's doing such things.Why he's so determined to forget me.Why he was so heartless. But i guess I'll NEVER know get my answers. He'll NEVER care about me again..

sigh~ If only I can talk to him again~ if only i can be FRIENDS with him again.

But of course, I can't turn back time.

I've got loads to tell him, but i guess i can only keep it to myself....

oh wells.

k i gtg le.Bye~!

My life still continues even without him...

Sigh I feel so freaking sad...It has been 3 days since I last sms-ed him!!And I was so fed-up I deleted the sms convo we used to have.....Anyway, I find it rather stupid to wait for him when he already has SOMEONE else on his mind.....Might as well....might as well.....

Idk what I should do.Someone, tell me eh?

I feel so dumb.

gtg.see ya! =(

I miss you...

It's time to party~

No matter how hard I tried, this blog seemed sooooo dead!
Maybe it's time i stopped blogging too.Just can't seem to stand this graveyard any longer cos I'm always talking to myself. I so zilian! ==

And the following post is meant strictly for today.Not tmr, not ytd.

Now i think i know why my blog is so dead! Cos i'm a boring gal!
Ok.I do admit that.o.o

Even KC says my life is SUPER boring.

But what can I do?I can't change my character overnight...I've tried, and I seemed like a maniac instead. *gets run over by a truck*

ok.gtg le. run out of topic as usual.bb.

All because of meh.

This post is supposedly meant for yesterday. o.o
But ytd I too busy already la. No time no time! ><

All because of me, myself and I, me and my sis took the wrong bus back to Lot 1. -.-
We went like....1 whole big round around Yew Tee! But the bus ride was rather fun.Haha! xD

And the CCK swimming complex cheated my feelings. Every Monday it'll be closed for maintenance of the pool. I feel so....humiliated. T.T

And i had a game of badminton ytd too! Rather vigorous, but satisfying! Hope I've lost a bit of fat here and there....I've been eating too much, WAY TOO MUCH these days, thus it explains why I'm growing horizontally instead of the other way round. ><

Guess what? I'm already halfway through the book "The Chysalids" ! And I've already finished ALL my hw!!!HOOOOORAAAYYY!!!!!:D *screams like nobody's business*

Today we're supposed to have a math enrichment, but because of some reasons, it was canceled...so sad! I wanted to learn some new stuff today! T.T

And I taught my sis abt Electricity today! Ms Kang's notes are of great help! :D

ok.gtg le.bb!

J.