Happy New Year......in advance!!

Today is the very last day of the year! :D As for all the wonderful memories I had this year...I'll just keep them safe in my heart. (: hahahahahahaha

And my new year resolutions...HMM..lemme see:

1. Try to patch things up with HIM

2. Study hard and get into my fav JC!

3. Control my hormones

4. Get the Edusave scholarship(2 yrs nvr get le...WAHHHHH!!!:'( )

5. Be less anti-social and make more friends

6. (I haven't thought of it yet. ><)

RAWR. Things just dun seem to go the way I expected it to be. =( SAD....

And I have a feeling that next year will be SOOOOOO screwed up. T.T

oh wells.

A bad day today

Now i'm VERY pissed off at myself. Last night I slept for only about 2 hours, and with my uncontrolled emotions now, I'm practically an exploding volcano and a potential danger zone. RAWR. So stay away from me...at least for today.

Sorry for the profanities that is to follow.

I'm fucking pissed off at myself cos I fucking miss him. I suppose he doesn't miss me anymore and he's probably having fun now/looking at someone else/ emoing over something else. And why do I still fucking miss him??Why do I still give a shit about him??Why do I wanna try to patch things up again when I know that it'll be fucking useless?!

And cos of him, I nvr contribute much to the ST, I nvr talk much to the other excos, and i nvr contribute much to the camp. FML.

I feel like calling someone now and have a heart-to-heart talk and make myself feel better....but apparently I don't wish to give anyone any extra burdens to carry....RAWR.

oh wells. NEVERMIND.Everything's useless anyway.

(:

Finally. I think I have gotten over him le. But who knows?maybe the feeling will come back again and I'll start missing him again...

Okay. My main purpose today is to thank a certain friend of mine who has been there for me whenever I was down, whenever I thought I was about to break down. (:

Idk if she'll read this, but oh wells. I'm really grateful to have a friend like her! Somehow, I didn't rly have any close friends whom I can rly confide to, whom I can trust my darkest secrets with. But now, I know who's truly my friend, who's rly there to catch me when I'm about to fall. Not that I'm reliant on my friends...I've never told anyone how I rly felt abt things before cos I don't want to be a burden to others. But now,apparently something big happened and I kinda need someone to talk to........

oh wells.Thanks loads!!^^

Idk why, but I rly envy ppl who have very close friends, so close that they seem like real siblings. Maybe it's just me being anti-social, but I've really tried my best....=(

Gah.nvm.

And I'm beginning to think that HE leaving me may be my just desserts. =( Come to think of it, I rly did not treat him well enough and I made him live a life of misery. LOL. Or perhaps I didn't want to admit that I liked him. AWKWARD...:/

HE attended the farewell party ytd. And it was weird cos he was emoing all the time. LOL.At that moment, I really felt like talking to him and asking if all was well(obviously NOT) cos he looked kinda ill, but in the end I decided not to...Anyway, he didn't even want to talk to me either, so what's the use? And yea. I believe I saw him on the bus this morning...=(

oh wells.nvm.bb.

=(

Sigh...I just realised that I have a very very sad life...

He has ignored me for more than 1 mth le...idk how he does it, but oh wells. But i rly admire him for his strong 'determination'. xD

u know what?i miss him,A LOT.

But nobody really understand what I'm going through now....Whenever I miss him, I just want to talk to someone and let out all my feelings....but most ppl are busy nowadays...preparing for o lvl etc etc. =(

And and....he blocked me on fb. RAWR!!

I just want to know why he's doing such things.Why he's so determined to forget me.Why he was so heartless. But i guess I'll NEVER know get my answers. He'll NEVER care about me again..

sigh~ If only I can talk to him again~ if only i can be FRIENDS with him again.

But of course, I can't turn back time.

I've got loads to tell him, but i guess i can only keep it to myself....

oh wells.

k i gtg le.Bye~!

My life still continues even without him...

Sigh I feel so freaking sad...It has been 3 days since I last sms-ed him!!And I was so fed-up I deleted the sms convo we used to have.....Anyway, I find it rather stupid to wait for him when he already has SOMEONE else on his mind.....Might as well....might as well.....

Idk what I should do.Someone, tell me eh?

I feel so dumb.

gtg.see ya! =(

I miss you...