I have a sad sad life.

LOL.I'm still rather disturbed by what happened ytd..My prediction was right after all!!Amazingly I dun have any feelings....Maybe it's because I haven't gotten over him completely, which explains why I have no reaction towards such things anymore.

Rawr.

And HE(Not deforestation, but HIM) was the one who told others what happened.And I'm shocked. He did not have any reaction even though he already knew about it.

Which meant that he rly doesn't bother about me anymore...

I've got a sad sad life indeed!!

Rly, i dun rly know what to do now....everything is so awkward. Everything happened at the wrong timing and I rly dun want to crumble again before my friends. I dun wish to shed any more tears for him. It's already more than enough. But again, reality struck me really hard this time....

Sometimes, as time passes, all the more I think that he likes her. Anyway, it's been about 3 mths already. Anything is possible.

Oh well.

I have moved on~

Aww man~ I have a chem test tmr!!and i still have to revise for geog time prac tmr!!OMG!!!

RAWR.......meow!!xDD

School today was rather mundane...nothing much happened~

AND YOU KNOW WHAT??I deactivated my facebook account!!It's such an achievement. for a facebook addict like me!!XD MUAHAHAHAHA

I know that the following is a bit no link, but I feel slightly sad today(AGAIN, as usual.-.-) I thought a lot today, some probably are crap...but oh wells. I can't control my thoughts!

Well, I just, like really JUST, realised that he had moved on already...Maybe i took so long cos i couldn't accept reality. But now, I have woke up from my nightmare...It's quite hurtful, esp when u know that he used to like you like there was no tomorrow, but apparently he doesn't even give a damn about you anymore... Some ppl say that the fact that he ignored me(totally) meant that he still bothered about me, but i doubt so....I rly can't read his mind. =(

Aiya. Why am I raking up the past again??='(

And ohoh!!There's bio tmr...and i think i'm going to be skinned alive!!I forgot to ask the teacher for the microscopy ws!!!UUUGGGHHHH.

And and...I think Rainbow favours HIM a lot...It is quite irritating to see( and hear) him talking to Rainbow like she's his super close friend when she just merely taught his sis before..I just can't take it somehow...

LOL.

I saw my sec 1 juniors today too!!^^ They're so....cute!!^^ hahaha~

And I talked to that cold-blooded animal!!xDD I just realised that i didn't text him for a SUPER long time~~~

Hehehehe

Kay.Goodbye folks!(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PPL!!^^

Hahaha today is the 7th day of CNY~ so...it's everyone's birthday!!!hooray!!XD where's my present eh? xD

Today i'll be going to my cousin's new house...hope it'll be fun...

And u know what? i read the newspaper this morning and there was an article about blogging!They claimed that blogging helps to relieve teens' stress!!So i should blog more often~ hehehe~

I'm also starting to have bad vibes about something...I have a feeling that 'Deforestation' holds a torch for me.....disgusting animal.....but still, i'm not sure...hope that this feeling isn't true!>< if it's true then.......i rly have no idea...

Damn it.

OHOH!!Since my bio teacher said that her prof claimed that if u wanna kick a bad habit, dun do that bad habit for 21 days, I've decided not to log into fb for 21 days!!hahaha!!Anyway HE is not there anymore and fb is getting more and more boring...RAWR!

Wish me good luck in quitting my addiction! xD

hahahaha =P

sigh~And seems like a few iof my friends are starting to dislike cherry blossom cos of her suddenly sterling results....esp for SS and Lit!!And her chem....and her dishonest act to pass her chem results...I dun hate her or anyth, I'm just worried that i'll end up disliking her too. Bleah...

And for the past week i kept dreaming of her flirting with HIM...the feeling was rly unpleasant..but of course, i dun hold a grudge against her or anyth.It's just a dream after all~

Good news: I DUN LIKE HIM ANYMORE~!!!^^ but occasionally i still tend to miss him...which is not a good thing too.LOL.

I bet he doesn't think of me anymore.

oh wells.nvm.

And Happy birthday to MH!^^ hohoho~

kayy.buhbye. (:

I love you~

Hehe!!The lunar new year is in a few days time....and apparently i still dun have the new year spirit!!D: some ppl say that i'm crazy cos i'm not at all excited. xDD hahaha!!

and ohoh!!there was a nice rainbow today!!U know what?I yearned to see a rainbow ever since the Dec hols, esp after I...well...u know~ and FINALLY!!i caught a quick glimpse of it before it faded! :D

Rainbows mean a lot to me.Somehow, it just comforts me and hints me that everything will be all right~ Thank God for letting me see a rainbow!!

Somehow, I dun rly miss him anymore. In fact, I have given up on him since last Saturday, but sometimes i still tend to think of him and the times we used to share......hope that this won't happen again.....I hate that feeling.A lot.

Sigh!!i also feel demoralised cos i didn't manage to get into the team for CB Paul!!!!actually i nvr rly study.....serve me right..:/ WAHHHHHH~~!!!!

And I submitted an additional chinese essay regarding '失恋' to Rainbow....Idk what she's going to say abt it...xDDD

LOL.

Buhbye.

走吧！

因为累了，所以选择放弃。

因为太想你，所以选择忘记。

因为爱你，所以选择放你走。

也许，是我太自以为是了吧。正所谓“强摘的果子不会甜”。 即使我知道你已经不爱我，不在乎我了，我仍然还是放不下这段感情。可能是我脑子坏了吧，我已经分不出幻想和事实了。。。

人家说我痴情，人家骂我傻，可是我还是越陷越深，越不能自拔。。。

既来之则安之。随缘吧。

加油！

Pathetic me :/

I saw the hurt and hatred in your eyes when u looked at me. I really want to say that I'm sorry, but i've already said it so many times that it seems so meaningless now...I really hope that we'll be friends again, but apparently God forbids us from being friends...

And u know what?All because of you, I screwed up my CT1. Why can't u just come up to me and tell me the truth?Why do u want me to doubt and accuse you? Why won't u give me a chance to explain things to you? Suddenly, i'm besieged by a storm of conflicting emotions. Anger because I've screwed up my common test and I can't seem to forget you even though 2 long and torturous months have passed. Melancholy because I've lost my good friend and companion. Anticipation because I rly hope that God will give me another chance to make up to you and patch things up. And lastly, hurt, because u're the first one to make me cry like....so damn many times.

Idk why am I behaving like this...i'm pretty emotional nowadays and i can't seem to control it anymore. I can feel the tiny microscopic cracks beginning to take form on my solid facade...and beneath the mask lies a heart scarred to no end.

I used to tell myself and the others that I nvr liked you/I've NEVER like you. Can someone just tell me why am I feeling so hurt now....?

Everything I do, I think of you...RAWR. Irrational thoughts. LOL.

Well, i just hope that i'll forget you soon. =)

And ohoh!Today was rather epic...Cos i couldn't sign into my asknlearn account, i went to look for Mr T. to tell him abt the prob. And then he said that i forgot my password when I DIDN'T. LOL. i rmbr all my passwords very well de luh...and to prove my point, I told him that I've got another friend who couldn't sign in. When he helped me reset my password, he asked me for my friend's NRIC no./name(duh.of course i know my friend's name. =.=).And when he realised that my friend was a male, he asked if me and him were rly only FRIENDS....hmm...LOLOLOL.xDD

kayy.gtg le.bb!^^