Lonely

Suddenly it dawned upon me that I'm a person who always looks back into the past, one who never embrace the present or even anticipate the future. I often reminisce the past, thinking about all the great memories I used to have. I really dunno how to change this bad 'habit' of mine...

Today, those memories of us unknowingly came back to me again. And the fact that all my siblings are out and I'm only left with my mum at home today, I felt kinda lonely. Sometimes I have the urge to share those unhappy feelings with her but she just doesn't understand my feelings no matter how hard she tried...and I always end up getting chided by her for being stupid and not letting go of the past. No point telling her in the end. Well, her words are true, but it is just THAT difficult for me to get him out of my life....When I miss him, I never get to see him. When my wounds have healed, he appears again. wth is this seriously...

Sometimes I do question myself if I still have feelings for him. I will give a definite no, I guess. Just that sometimes I kinda miss his company~~ I wonder if anyone else saw his cute side before hehehe. Well, I should just comfort myself by saying that I'm the first girl he loved in his life (other than his sister) and I was the first one to see the other side of him! hehehe. And of course, it is the same for him!(I hope)

I was hoping that he wouldn't be upset by his future crushes anymore...aiya jia you la okay? :D

And jia you to me too. Hope that one day I can let go of him completely~



"不要再问 谁是对的 谁是错的
谁是谁非 谁又亏欠谁了
反正错了 反正输了
反正自己 陪自己快乐


我不管 你是谁的 谁是你的 我是我的
让心跳 动次 动次 动次 动次 感觉活着

我不管 站着坐着 躺着趴着 都要快乐
让音乐 动次 动次 动次 动次 快要聋了

不管了 不想了 不等了 不要不快乐
伤心的人 别听慢歌"


《伤心的人别听慢歌 〉五月天