Self reflection. :/

Ever since what happened today, I began to reflect A LOT about myself.And suddenly it seems like...I suck. :/

Well, I dun really wish to talk abt that stupid incident anymore. If the guy want curse me then let him be. Not my business,HAHA. Seriously, I didn't expect him to swerve to the side. Damn embarrassing sia.

oh wells.

After a long chat with CT, I realised a lot of bad points about me. And all are pretty serious, to be exact....I'm a person who can't make decisions, I can't THINK, I have no common sense, I have no initiative, I'm too quiet, I'm so not cool, I'm not pretty,I'm rather anti-social, I only know how to study and dk anyth else. :/ Seriously. And the list can go on and on and on to no end

And now I know why i'm so apprehensive when i talk to strangers.That's because I think that I'm too ugly. No link, but i just dun want to show them my ugliness. This is a pretty serious problem eh? ><

I rly dk what i should do....it's not like i can control the way i look. And I'll NEVER go for plastic surgery, mainly cos if i do, then i'm not me anymore.Besides,I've got loads of white hair, not due to stress, but due to heriditary. I dun plan to dye my hair now cos it's unhealthy for my hair, and if i were to remind my mum about this issue again, she'll feel hurt cos she'll start blaming herself for causing this.To be frank, I've ever hated myself for being this way, but after a while, I got over it. (:

Sometimes, I just wonder why ppl have to judge others on their looks.The cool and pretty will be most welcomed; the ugly and the nerds will be left behind. Seriously, why is it so unfair?!We can't choose to be born this way...

I'm not a sporty person either, mainly cos of the way i was brought up. I was not exposed to sports since young, and as a result, I suck at pe. :/ I can't swim and I can't play any type of sports well!!I rly hate it when I can't catch the ball properly and look like a retard to the others.And i think from pri sch till now, i played bball only like....less than 50 times. FML.

And I have tried my best to change my character--------from an emo girl to a more cheerful and hyper one. But it seems so unnatural and some might think that i'm crazy. :/ I've rly tried my best...I just dun want ppl to think of me as a nerd and as an antisocial dude.

And I heard from Person A that Person B said that I'm like cherry princess...only know how to study and memorise, but dk how to think. To be frank, I was rather hurt by this comment cos i know deep down that this is true. But idk how to improve sia. I kinda grew up like that...very diff to change immediately.

Sigh...

看不见的彩虹

昨天，我班与T2有一项 StudySkills Workshop. 早知道的话，我就不应该期待太多。。原以为那天我能够趁机休息一下，把一切烦恼抛到九霄云外，可是没料到，我竟然开始吃醋！！当时的我应该看起来蛮可怕的吧。。我好像把CT给吓跑了。:X

坦白说，我没有吃过醋！而且吃醋的感觉。。真的很不好受。。。

幸好，昨晚我与QX聊了一下之后，我就觉得好多了。(:

Hehe!!=P

昨天，可能我的脑筋出了故障， 竟然允许自己默默地从远处看他。。。而且我还盯着他看了好几个小时！也许我快要疯掉了吧。。。

Uh oh. :X

算了啦。我不想管了。。。

情人节快乐！！

Hoho!今天是情人节！可惜，我没有什么情人可以陪伴我度过情人节。。。Sad life!!XO

哈哈。不晓得为什么，今天我哭了一个小时，但大哭一场之后，我的确觉得好多了。(:

今天也蛮丢脸的。。。我竟然在JM面前流泪！！那时，KL 与XC 正在合唱“那些年”。然后我就突然间想到他。。。接着，眼泪就不由自主地渗出来。-.- 啊！！！真的是羞死人了！

毕竟，今天是情人节。我开始想他也是自然的。可是，我猜他不会想我了吧。。也许他现在正在想念他的新欢。。。坦白说，我真的觉得超不爽！！但我又不能做些什么来夺回他的心，也不能向他说出我心里的感受。。。真的是所谓的“哑巴吃黄连，有苦说不出”！！

我真的很想知道他是否真的喜欢上了她！！他曾经跟我说过他没有变心，可是在这个青春期间，我们的思想并不成熟。也许，他也不知不觉地爱上她了吧。。我真的不想再胡思乱想，也不想一直以惆怅的心情过每一天。。。

谁能告诉我答案呢？

RAWR!!!

It's weird, because I can't tell if I'm mad or sad.LOL.i just realised that it rhymes!!XD

Rawr.

Dk why this morning T screamed to the lvl 4 study corner saying:" Eh WX!!Stop flirting la!!" LOL. idk who he's flirting with and idc.=P

I improved a lot right?HAH!

Missing him has become some sort of a habit.Now, I dun miss him as much le, but occasionally the feeling comes back. :/

Till now, he still ignores me COMPLETELY. wts.

Like I murdered his entire family like that. -.-

And since it has been about 4 mths le, he should have someone he likes? (: At least he won't feel sad anymore. :D like DUH. He laughed so much in class that it is beginning to sound very annoying.-.-

Lol.

RAWRRR!!!TOMORROW IS VALENTINE'S DAY AND I HAVE NO VALENTINE!!T^T

Sad life.

oh wells.nvm.Next time ba. (:

AND J IS SO FUNNY HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!XDD

Kay.gtg.bb!

Speechless me

LOLS. Dk why, but I have a rly weird feeling inside me...Suddenly I feel so lonely, perhaps cos no one texted me for a few hours le? I realised that I'm too used to ppl texting me and if no one texts me, I'll start to think of him...Weird logic, but true!XD

Hahahaha

Today we were given an EL composition to write as weekend homework....We have 3 qns to choose from:

1. Write about an incident that made you question your prejudice.
2. Write about some of the things that make you proud of your country.
3. What is your favourite time of the year? Why?

omg. After I saw the questions, I was totally speechless.

Mainly because if it were to appear in the exams, I won't even think of attempting them.

And now it's homework!!Me no inspiration!!!><

Help.Me.

hahahaha oh wells.Try luh.

Today T.T seemed so dejected...in the end it turned out that she was unhappy about something. yea.SOMETHING. ;D

kay.gtg.See ya~!

No title.

今天，我又崩溃了。

别问我为什么。我累了。

心烦。

不晓得为什么，我又开始想你了。明明已经不爱了，还会对你念念不忘。。。真是让我摸不着头脑！毕竟，思念你总比喜欢Deforestation 来得更好。我突然发现，当我开始想你的时候，连我自己也会怕！xD

这几天我正在阅读一本书，名叫“那些年，我们一起追的女孩”。这本书很受大家的欢迎，主要是因为这让他们想起以前那些美好的时光，那个让人难以忘怀的初恋！我一边读着这本书，一边思念着他。。。书里有某一些句子我本身觉得还蛮有趣的。哈哈！

我突然发现，我的疑心病又开始发作，而且这几天特别的厉害。尤其是对于他。不久前，隔壁班的一位女生来我班找一位同学，可是结果她于她开始谈起话来，而且又谈得很开心！也许我在吃醋，也是我快要疯掉了，可是，我心里真的很难受。他接近什么女生，我就以为他喜欢她。我真是幼稚，很幼稚！！

他不理我，已经快要3个月了。到现在我还是不知道他是怎么做到的。真是让我感到佩服。

算了。

这几天，我也总是觉得事事不顺心。也许是老天爷在搞恶作剧。

假期时，我一直告诉人家我很伤心，感到痛不欲生，也许是因为我以为有人会帮我转告给他我目前的心情。可惜，他们默默无言。我的感受，也因此没有传到他那里。

唉。。。何苦呢？时间是宝贵的。我还是好好的利用时间来准备O 水准会考吧。。。

我只希望老天爷会解除我心中的结。